Faith
"Faith is the assurance of things hoped for; the conviction of things not seen" Hebrews 11:1
I read this verse today when I got to work. I thought about it this morning. Faith is something that is hard for me and countless other Christians. I know that I have faith in somethings. For instance, gravity is something that I have faith in. I have faith that when I sit down in my chair, it's going to hold me up. If I sat down and it didn't, I would lose my faith in gravity.
Right now, I am having a lonely day. Before I say this let me preface that I LOVE Eldo. I miss my life in Tyler. I miss MY old job (not Darrell's, this one is a MUCH better fit for us). I miss my home. I miss my friends. I miss my life there. I miss going out to the chinese place with my coworker. I miss going to the Mall or running over to Michael's to buy something I forgot. Because Eldo is so small, I can't do those things anymore.
Moving to a new city requires faith. It requires me getting up each morning in a small town, in a house that still does not really feel like mine and going to a job that I really am no satsfied at with the assurance that I must trust God. Faith requires committment. Good thing I am committed!
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
Haven't updated in a while
I know. I am so lame about posting to our blog. Here are our updates:
Darrell- Things are going well at church. He is really developing relationships with the students at our new church. We love these students. It's refreshing to have a Godly group of students who desire to seek God for their lives. We did have 2 students (a couple who were dating) that were involved in a wreck on Sunday. The girl is going to have to have surgery on her arm later on this week. We are praying for them both as they recover. It is a true miracle that neither one of them were killed as many other teenagers have not been as lucky on that road.
Aimee- Well, this little dynamite is doing well. She has not been feeling well lately and we took her to the doctor where he gave her 2 different allergy medicines to get her back to normal. She has her first T ball pratice tomorrow afternoon. That is going to be so exciting. She is enjoying school and AWANA's at the church and is a joy to Darrell and I.
Renee- Well, this month is going to be a busy month for me. I have to travel 2 different times away from my family. I am going to Houston for a training for work and then I will be attending a Hannah's Prayer BOD meeting and conference at the end of the month. I am excited about this time with my friends but I am not excited about leaving my family for that long of a time. The trips are 4 days away, 5 days home and then 5 days away.
Aimee and I traveled to Tyler last weekend to see our old friends. We met up at Chuck E Cheese's and had a great time. I love visiting with my friends but there are always so many of us, it's hard for us all to talk. I so miss my Tyler friends. It was wierd to be back in Tyler and think how much this town still feels like home. I was like that though when we left WM and so I am sure it will get better. I do like El Dorado but there are not many job opportunities for me here so that is a bummer.
At this time we don't have any summer plans. We would like to take a crusie but that will either be at the end of this year or sometime next year. I have to earn some time off and we want Darrell's parents to go with us when we go. They enjoy crusing and Aimee so it will be a good family time. Darrell has summer camp in Mississippi that I am going to try and get some time off to go.
Anyway, that is what is up with the Deans!
Darrell- Things are going well at church. He is really developing relationships with the students at our new church. We love these students. It's refreshing to have a Godly group of students who desire to seek God for their lives. We did have 2 students (a couple who were dating) that were involved in a wreck on Sunday. The girl is going to have to have surgery on her arm later on this week. We are praying for them both as they recover. It is a true miracle that neither one of them were killed as many other teenagers have not been as lucky on that road.
Aimee- Well, this little dynamite is doing well. She has not been feeling well lately and we took her to the doctor where he gave her 2 different allergy medicines to get her back to normal. She has her first T ball pratice tomorrow afternoon. That is going to be so exciting. She is enjoying school and AWANA's at the church and is a joy to Darrell and I.
Renee- Well, this month is going to be a busy month for me. I have to travel 2 different times away from my family. I am going to Houston for a training for work and then I will be attending a Hannah's Prayer BOD meeting and conference at the end of the month. I am excited about this time with my friends but I am not excited about leaving my family for that long of a time. The trips are 4 days away, 5 days home and then 5 days away.
Aimee and I traveled to Tyler last weekend to see our old friends. We met up at Chuck E Cheese's and had a great time. I love visiting with my friends but there are always so many of us, it's hard for us all to talk. I so miss my Tyler friends. It was wierd to be back in Tyler and think how much this town still feels like home. I was like that though when we left WM and so I am sure it will get better. I do like El Dorado but there are not many job opportunities for me here so that is a bummer.
At this time we don't have any summer plans. We would like to take a crusie but that will either be at the end of this year or sometime next year. I have to earn some time off and we want Darrell's parents to go with us when we go. They enjoy crusing and Aimee so it will be a good family time. Darrell has summer camp in Mississippi that I am going to try and get some time off to go.
Anyway, that is what is up with the Deans!
Monday, March 19, 2007
Devotional
Today I woke up with a migrane and with that, nausea. I didn't feel like going to church but I always hate to miss it so I decided to go anyway. After feeling nauseous during the prayer time I slipped out and headed to the house. Darrell told me after church someone asked him where I was. He said that I had felt a little nauseous this morning and I went home. (You KNOW where I am going on this one???). The comment was made "is she pg?".You know, it bothers me that just because I am married it is automatically assumed that I am pg when I am sick to my stomach. Of course, being new here, the church does not know our history of infertility (IF) so people don't think about how these comments affect us.
Tie this into our movie last night, "Facing the Giants" and that comment was hard to hear. The subplot is about the coach and his wife going through IF. In the end they did get pregnant and went on to have children. I love the movie for the Christian aspect but for someone who has been through infertility, it does not always turn out that way. We struggled for 2 years to have a pregnancy. We spent countless hours in prayer begging for a child. I cried every time I found out I wasn't pg. I remember how I felt incomplete as I could not bear a child for my husband. I remember wondering if I was being punished for some reason for a sin that I had committed.
We were eventually blessed with Aimee and do you know why? I don't. It's not that God looked down on me and Darrell when we were in the midst of infertility and said "oh, there are bad past sins in their lives so I won't give them a child". God doesn't work like that. The God that I serve is a God of love and only wants the best for me.
Proverbs 3:5 states "Trust in the Lord with all your own heart and lean not on your own understanding.
Just because I believe in God does not mean that every single thing I desire is given to me. I don't understand why some teenagers have children when they are unmarried and why a married couple has to watch their first child pass away. I don't understand it at all. What I do hear God saying is to trust Him. What I have to do is to trust God for everything in my life. It means that I trust him for the good and the bad things that happen in my life. It means bottom line, I trust. Do you?
Tie this into our movie last night, "Facing the Giants" and that comment was hard to hear. The subplot is about the coach and his wife going through IF. In the end they did get pregnant and went on to have children. I love the movie for the Christian aspect but for someone who has been through infertility, it does not always turn out that way. We struggled for 2 years to have a pregnancy. We spent countless hours in prayer begging for a child. I cried every time I found out I wasn't pg. I remember how I felt incomplete as I could not bear a child for my husband. I remember wondering if I was being punished for some reason for a sin that I had committed.
We were eventually blessed with Aimee and do you know why? I don't. It's not that God looked down on me and Darrell when we were in the midst of infertility and said "oh, there are bad past sins in their lives so I won't give them a child". God doesn't work like that. The God that I serve is a God of love and only wants the best for me.
Proverbs 3:5 states "Trust in the Lord with all your own heart and lean not on your own understanding.
Just because I believe in God does not mean that every single thing I desire is given to me. I don't understand why some teenagers have children when they are unmarried and why a married couple has to watch their first child pass away. I don't understand it at all. What I do hear God saying is to trust Him. What I have to do is to trust God for everything in my life. It means that I trust him for the good and the bad things that happen in my life. It means bottom line, I trust. Do you?
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
My day so far....
has been so boring.....I have 20 minutes before work is out and so I am just using that time to do nothing.....
Aimee's 5th birthday party was this past weekend and it was great! We had tons of kids come and they were not really kids that she knew. We have been away from WM for 6 years but I had invited all my old friends who have kids her age. I think I had just as much fun as she did.
Several of you have sent me a message about the pictures. Right now the camera is out of batteries and I have to go to Wal-Mart and get some. Since I hate going to Wal-Mart, I will post them later on this weekend when I can't put that task off any longer.
Aimee's 5th birthday party was this past weekend and it was great! We had tons of kids come and they were not really kids that she knew. We have been away from WM for 6 years but I had invited all my old friends who have kids her age. I think I had just as much fun as she did.
Several of you have sent me a message about the pictures. Right now the camera is out of batteries and I have to go to Wal-Mart and get some. Since I hate going to Wal-Mart, I will post them later on this weekend when I can't put that task off any longer.
Friday, February 23, 2007
The Gym membership
Well, when we moved to El Dorado, we had to leave our old decrepit gym (that we really didn't like but were getting a dirt rate fee). I actually said that El Dorado (which will now be called Eldo in future blogs), being small and in Arkansas probally would not have a good gym.
Au contrair (is that how you spell it? I took French for 3 years and I still can't spell it but I can't spell in English actually), they had a NICE gym with an indoor pool and all the nice things that I like to spend money on if I actually HAVE to go to the gym.
They also have a.....................spin class. Now, about 2 weeks ago, I would have put that in all capital letters but I have decided something. I don't like spin. I mean, what sane person rides a bike up and down fake hills going no where when you could just get in a car and go on vacation. Nonetheless, I decided to give into my natural inclination to run....or not, and stick it out. Today though I left in the middle of the class. Tuesday was the 70's music (which I didn't like), Wednesday was more of the type of music that I liked including Will Smith, Nelly, etc.... Today was COUNTRY.....What kinda workout are you going to get on country music???? So, I pedaled no where for about 15 minutes and then went to run on the treadmill where I could listen to the Black Eyed Peas.
The old guy on the treadmill didnt' want to hear me humming "Let's get it started" and left. I guess I should have just stayed in the spin class rather than tryring to impress older members of the gym with my singing ability.
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
The sneaky one
We put Aimee to bed last night about 7:40 ish. She didn't get a nap at school and appeared to be tired. She went to bed without any arguments so we figured she would go to sleep quickly.
When we went to bed last night after Law and Order:SVU I opened her door as I go turn her night light off and give her one last kiss. She looked at me wide eyed with this look of shock on her face. I wasn't sure what was going on but then I saw it! She was playing with the Vtech pocket in her bed and had hid it under the sheet.
I had to turn away because I was so shocked and I didn't want her to see me smiling. She knew that she was not supposed to have that and so in order to not have it, she tried to hide it.
Made me think a lot about when I try to hide things from my heavenly father. You know, He always catches me too.
The joys of being a parent....I sure do love that child (although the Vsmile is not going to be left in her room at bedtime!)
When we went to bed last night after Law and Order:SVU I opened her door as I go turn her night light off and give her one last kiss. She looked at me wide eyed with this look of shock on her face. I wasn't sure what was going on but then I saw it! She was playing with the Vtech pocket in her bed and had hid it under the sheet.
I had to turn away because I was so shocked and I didn't want her to see me smiling. She knew that she was not supposed to have that and so in order to not have it, she tried to hide it.
Made me think a lot about when I try to hide things from my heavenly father. You know, He always catches me too.
The joys of being a parent....I sure do love that child (although the Vsmile is not going to be left in her room at bedtime!)
Thursday, February 15, 2007
I got a job today! That is impressive here in El Dorado because there are NO jobs (other than nursing or working for the oil companies). I am going to be working as a sexual assult educator. Basically, I get to go to the school and talk about domestic violence and sexual abuse along with teaching teenagers about healthy relationships. Since I eventually want to be a family and marriage counselor, this should really help give me some experience in this area.
I am really glad I went into social work as I am able to do so many different things with my degree. I have worked with infants, elderly, foster children and now families. So, I guess it's time to contact some schools to see about starting my master's. FUN!!!!!
(Now, I didn't expect to get a call at 7:00 on Thursday and be working at 7:00 on Friday. I'm just tired thinking about getting back to a normal work day.)
I am really glad I went into social work as I am able to do so many different things with my degree. I have worked with infants, elderly, foster children and now families. So, I guess it's time to contact some schools to see about starting my master's. FUN!!!!!
(Now, I didn't expect to get a call at 7:00 on Thursday and be working at 7:00 on Friday. I'm just tired thinking about getting back to a normal work day.)
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