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Merry Christmas!

Now this is what I am married for!

Well, not truly but it does help.

Ok, I am in here and was just starting to get some work done. I hear this commotion going on. We have 18 wheelers just rush through the main street all the time so I wasn't concerned. I look out the window and I see this little Ford Ranger truck coming back into my yard. I went outside and this flat bed trailer type thing in our side yard with all these hard rusted metal rods sticking out of the brick foundation of our house and close to where D parks.

I am totally in shock now. I have NO idea what to do and D is not here. So, I call him and tell him to come home. See, I am a woman who knows how to handle these type things.....Call MY husband. He asks me if it hit the gas and I said that I thought it might but I was not sure. After he tells me to get out of the house, he tells me to call 911 and ask the fire dept to come out.
By the time he got here we had 3 police officers, the electrical company and the fire chief and fire truck (complete with firemen in their getup). By the time it was all over you can add the electrician and the foundation person.

My D came and took care of all the house stuff so I didn't have to. What a sweet man!
Now, we (or rather the church's insurance) have to get this house fixed. I am thankful no one was hurt. And it looks like I get to get some new lighting for my yard since the pipe busted the other one out.

Tommorow's a hard day...

I am going to host Carol's baby shower tomorrow. I approach this with a bittersweet approach. Happiness because that means that baby Lexie is almost here. Happiness because my sister, MY SISTER is a mommy.

Sadness is also present because I am not going to have any more babies myself. Thankfully my sweet sister has been telling the people that are coming to the shower what has been going on. Hopefully, I won't get the "when are you having more children" question.

We (the hostesses) got her a GOOD gift and I can't wait to give it to her.

Also, it's 10:00 am and there is NOTHING on TV. I'm Fso bored.

I wanted to go to WM today and spend the night at my mother's house. Darrell said that he didn't think it was a good idea (which Carol agreed with). I never sleep well there and with my incision, he thought I needed to be at home in my bed.

I am hoping that I will be able to go out to eat with Carol and her "entourage" after the shower. They are all going to Olive Garden. We were invited but I am not sure if we will be able to go since I get so tired and in pain so quickly.

All in all, let's have a great day!

Ready to update....

Sorry for you that have been following my blog. I just have not felt like updating.

I had my staples taken out on Tuesday. That was nice. They were starting to bother me. Darrell said that it was the coolest thing that he has ever seen. I am glad that I can give him a little humor out of this because I'm not laughing.....lol! The doctor stated that my scar looks great and he thinks that I am healing well. I have to go back after thanksgiving but he cleared me to drive next Tuesday.

Yesterday I have a little bit of fever and did not feel well at all. I am better now but it took a while.

I have a huge scar that "I" think looks gross. Darrell said that it looks really good compared to how it looked when it was first done. I know that no one is going to see the scar but it bothers me that it's there. Oh well, at least all in all, I am going to feel MUCH better when this is all over.

Have a good one!

Sitting at home....

Doing nothing! Man, this being a lady of leisure is going to get old soon.

Today is a better day so far. I slept until 9 after waking up at 6. Carol went to get McD's before she left and we ate that. It made me nauseous though. I don't think my body can take the grease of McD's after my surgery. I think I will not be eating fast food for a while. This would be a good time to NOT eat it.

I am really hoping that I can lose some weight while I am at the house. Right now it's fine because I am not hungry but I know that when I get bored, I eat. I am trying to keep only good foods in the house and eat fruit when I need a snack. I have lose some weight but that is due to the swelling that is finally going down.

Let's see what else is going on. Aimee will be back home today. It's been a week since I spent any time with her. I am little nervous about this because Darrell has to take care of her and me. I know that I struggle to get her to school myself so this is going to be difficult for them.

I go back to the dr tomorrow to get my staples out. OUCH! I don't really remember them hurting with Aimee but that's been 5 years ago and my memory is not that good. I have some questions for him that I know I need to ask but it probally will not be a long visit.

Well, that's all for now. Pain is being managed and at this moment, I think I am going to make it. LOL!

Pain meds of choice.....

Are NOT morphine! They gave me morphine after my surgery. I had heard that it had some itchy side effects but I was not prepared for the feelings that I had. I woke up to feeling that bugs were all over my skin. I could not scratch my back or my legs. I had to scratch and coulden't. Darrell was so sweet and scratched until my skin was almost raw.

I stopped the pain medicine pretty quick but then the dr. came in the next day and said that he could give me a different medicine through my IV. I told him that would be great. That worked for the next 24ish hours but then my IV collapsed. Since it took 3 times before they could get my IV in this was not possible.

When I first got to the hospital they attempted to start my IV. It failed. They started another one. It failed. I went to surgery where she numbed my hand and then gave me a little IV (butterfly) which worked. When I woke up I had an IV in both hands. They were keeping one as an extra. It ended up collapsing the next day and then it had to be taken out. All in all, I finally was able to get rid of the IV's.

So, lesson learned...Renee has jumpy veins (which I already knew). FUN!

Today so far has been a little better. I have been able to get up on my own from the bed and couch. I pay for it later on but its nice to be able to get up on my own and do something for myself for a change.

Carol is making chicken spaghetti today for lunch! YUMMY! I love chicken spaghetti. I am so glad that she came to hang out with me. I have been sore and bored so she has been good to keep my mind off my pain. Darrell is at church and me, I am just going to chill on the couch. lol!

Oh. My. Goodness.

I think that if you can think of the worse pain in the world, it would be worse than this. I am in so much pain. I can't walk without holding my belly but I can't touch my belly because of the incision. Did I mention that I have 17 STAPLES in my body???? If I went through a metal detector then they would kick me out.

I cried this morning because I can't have any more children. I knew that in my head but my heart is just finding this out. I just hurt overall. I want to go back to my normal way of life but what is that now a days? I mean, I used to go to work, work out, cook dinner, hang out and now I can even hook my bra!!! I don't like weakness and I AM weak. I can't do anything. Even going to get a drink of water is painful. I can sit on the couch but getting up requires assistance. I can go to the bathroom by myself, THANK you GOD! That would be even more embarassing.

Anyway, I don't have anything else to do other than post about my pain. All I can say girls is that if someone suggest a hysterectomy and bladder sling.....RUN as FAST AS YOU CAN!!!!!!!!

Flowers from the hospital

These are the flowers from my surgery. The light pink roses are from Brittany who is one of our youth. The purple carnations are from the church staff. The bright pink ones are from the McKinney's. The wife just had this surgery about 3 months ago and was very supportive and informative for me. There is a fall harvest of different flowers from my friend, Tangie, in Tyler. She was unable to actually come up for the surgery but she is one of my biggest supporters.

My friend DeAnna and her daughter Lexi gave me a wonderfal basket with a book, color pencils and color book (for Aimee), a candle and get this....a box of laxatives. She said that her mom (who is an RN) said that I would need them. I haven't used them but still, very funny.

Greg and Ashley also came to see me and brought me a balloon and 2 of my favorite candybars, Carmello and Heath bars. LOVED them.

I had lots of friends and family come and see me or helped with Aimee. Thanks for all your support and love. It's been a hard process and we could not do it without ya'll.

Renee - The "Cut" version

So, here is where I am going to post my updates and journal about what I am going through. I know eventuallly that the pain and memories will fade so I want to be able to keep track of what is going on.

Surgery was done on October 30th. They ended up taking all of my uterus and placing a sling around my bladder to keep it upright. That will control the leakage and more urgency that I have had in the past. They also found out that my left ovary had a substantial cyst on it and massive amounts of scar tissue so it was removed. The other ovary was fine. They then had to remove a large amout on scar tissue on my c-section scar. So all in all, I had 4 different procedues done. The cycst thing brings light to our ttc years. Hard to get pregnant when you are only using 1 tube/egg and the other does not work.

How am I you ask? I hurt. I mean, really, really hurt. It's worse that the pain of childbirth because there was a reward there and it was not as invasive. My scar almost from hip to hip. I have 17 staples in my stomach. My stomach is so swollen that I can't feel anything from my belly button to my c section scar.

It hurts to walk. I can't get comfortable in a chair on on a bed. I can't lift things. I can't get up quickly because of the dizziness. I am a little scared to use the restroom (you know, the back end) because I do remember having Aimee and it hurting when I was recovering. I can't imagine the pain that is going to occur. I have to take pain medicine because if I don't, I hurt so bad I want to scream. I mean S-C-R-E-A-M!!!! As in holler and yell until I feel some relief.

I can't walk well and I have to hold my stomach and so I look like I am crazy. Not to mention that I can't walk fast so I look like a lumbering whale. I can't read or type long before my eyes go crossed because of all the pain meds I am on.

I know that after 6 weeks this is supposed to go away and I will feel like a better person but I can't imagine having a normal life ever again. I can't imagine giving myself a shower or bath, washing clothes, going to work or taking care of Aimee again by myself.

Man, I am ready for this to be over. I don't like being dependent on others. I just hurt. period. plain and simple. P.A.I.N.